Happiness

Do what you say, and say what you think, and all will be in harmony.

A Fresh New Start

The new semester is the perfect time to start fresh. I begin tomorrow with completely new classes and teachers, so I have the perfect opportunity to begin with a clean slate, both academically, and not.

Here are the top 5 things that I hope to accomplish over the next semester

1. Be more organized.

2. Prioritize my time better.

3. Become better at making healthier lunches to bring to school.

4. Become better at being on time in the morning.

5. Start my homework earlier so I can go to bed earlier.

Regardless of weather or not you are starting a new semester, or new classes, it’s still a great idea to set some goals for yourself. If you do, let me know what they are in the comments 🙂

Where I See Myself In Ten Years

Today I was asked where I see myself in 10 years. It was something I really had to think about, and let me tell you, it’s not easy thinking when there are 5 adults staring at you and a huge camera in your face, but thats besides the point. The point is, I don’t know where I see myself in 10 years. Sure I answered with the typical “For sure having a college degree in something, and hopefully with a job that I can enjoy. I hope to have people around me that I love..” And then I kind of just blanked. I paused for a minute and thought. I don’t know what it is, or where it is, or even how, but I want to be helping people and making a difference in some way.

 

I’m on this incredible journey right now. It’s an adventure and I’m willing to let it guide me. I don’t know were I want to be. How am I supposed to? I’m only sixteen. Life is this roller coaster and it has it’s ups and downs and in-betweens. And there’s love and beauty and all these amazing things that I just marvel at, everyday. There’s nature and there’s literature and art and there’s the internet and all this stuff is crazy to think about. 

And then there’s evil and disastrous earthquakes and tsunamis and people who go to a freaking school in Connecticut and kill a bunch of innocent kids. Kids that are full of beauty and good. Kids that have yet to live their life. 

There is no guided path for me. There is a road, but I have strayed far from it. I am not the norm, but thats ok. In fact, that’s good. So I’m not on the road, I’m not following any path, I’m carving my own way and I don’t know where it’s headed. 

I want to experience as much of this majestic world as I can. I hope to travel and I hope to learn. I hope to make changes for the good and leave the bad far behind. I hope to love and be loved with all of my heart. I hope to never regret anything I’ve done.

Of course, these are all just hopes of mine. In reality, I’m just trying to sit back and enjoy whatever life throws at me on this unexpected journey. I can’t know where I’m going or it wouldn’t be exciting, it wouldn’t be magical.

So why would I stay on the known path? I’m not the norm and I don’t pretend to be. I know I can’t sing yet I sing anywhere and everywhere. I love makeup, but because it’s fun to play with, not because I don’t like how I look without it. I enjoy school and openly call myself a math geek. I am not afraid to be myself. And I’m not afraid of where I might guide myself. 

In the next ten years, I’m going to experience beauty, love, and unbelievable happiness. I will also experience evil and pain. I will experience this not because I’m heading towards it, but because I will take everything life throws at me and grow from it. I’m carving my own little path with ups and downs and curves, and I’m going to look around me and take everything in. I only hope I can take the bad and change it, and take the good and let it influence me. 

There is no right or wrong way. There is nothing. There is only what I make of what I have been given.

 

Of course I didn’t say all of this when the camera was on me. It is much, much harder to speak than it is to write, but this is what I believe is in store for me within the next ten years of my life, and beyond.